I'm such a jerk!

I don't know how to start it..but i really feel guilty about yesterday deed. I know i was such a stupid jerk. I couldn't help it when i have a perfect girl like you as my girlfriend. I can't lose you. I don't wanna share you with anyone. I don't want others to have your attention. I know how it sounds. not nice at all, is it? I know that you love me much and I never forgot but I can't trust others around you. I'm afraid that they may take you away from me someday. I should feel great when others are nice to my girl, right? I know how I should feel but I just don't. It's hard when I can't show myself as your girlfriend there coz i'm here. No one will respect my right coz they will never know that I exist. I'm just an unreasonably jealous person, a very possessive, and also a super demanding girl. is that right? lol I hope you don't mind my nature though. have you got why Eing told me to be good with you now? :) It's like she knew i would behave like this. One thing I want from you is just be yourself! ok? i don't want you to feel uncomfortable when we're together coz I'm too jealous and possessive. I don't want you to force yourself to make any changes as from my demanding. I still remember you told me once that your friend talked to you about her boyfriend about how demanding he was. I don't want you to feel like she used to feel at all. Does love make me feel these all feelings? lol well I love you a lot. I care for you only. And you really don't need to keep distance between them ok? They will hate me if they find out. I don't want that. And of coz I don't want you to lose any friends because of me. Be yourself! ok? I'll be ok with it. I will from now on! I'm sorry about the last night. I just love my girlfriend who is YOU only that much! That's all. You're lovable as I told you hundreds times before! See?  :)