It's freaking cold here ..>_<..
It's as if I were in a snowing country.

Don't Worry Baby by The Beach Boys

I don't know why but this song along with its MV makes me calm and happy sometimes.

Don't worry baby! Everything will turn out alright!

James, earn this... earn it!

At Capt. Miller's grave...
Old James Ryan:  My family is with me today. They wanted to come with me. To be honest with you, I wasn't sure how I'd feel coming back here. Everyday I think about what you said to me that day on the bridge. I tried to live my life the best that I could. I hope that was enough. I hope that, at least in your eyes, I've earned what all of you have done for me.

Saving Private Ryan

Lost

After watchig all Lost episodes, I got something or some lessons from them. It's hard to describe all in words. Maybe it's like its title: Lost. I totally lost in words here. Anyway, I picked up one thing at the end of this long show. I learnt that the most important part/memory of your entire life, whether it's a sad one or a happy one, will never fade away nor disappear no mattter how long it's gone or passed. You can't let it go or escape from it no matter how hard you try. You will always stick with it even when you're gone. Whether you like it or not, you will still come to it. What happened happened. It will never let you go. Sometimes things are meant to be.

The Wonderful Journey by Da Endorphine

"Not Enough Time" by Dan & Beam

One thing about me is I listen to other people's advice but I just don't usually follow it. I can be stubborn at times and tamed sometimes. It's all about the matter of time and each issue.

I really hate stupid and silly believes, cultures, or whatever. They really shouldn't even exist at all.

Time flies ... but I walk. That's why I'm still staying childish. lol

A:  You, behave!
B:  I am behaving....badly!

Flint:  Actually I'm not allergic to peanuts. I just told you so that you would like me.
Sam:  So you really thought you'd be more attractive with allergies?

Miss Asian America 2008
Interview question round

Question: Name the wisest person you know and why!

Answer: Thank you for that wise question. Well first of all, I know a lot of wise people and I think I can learn a lot of things from each of everyone of them. But I will have to say that the wisest of them all will have to be my own mother. I know a lot of people will say that but I have a good reason. My mother.. I define her to be the wisest is because she knows how to make the right decisions at the right time by giving up her small herself for the bigger world. About 20 years ago, she immigrated here with my father from China and this decision was very important because she did this to try to give me a better life in America. And even though she had the most successful career in China, she still gave that up, came here, started from the very beginning and with the many many hardships. And through all those actions that she took, I can see that she's willing to give up everything for me and for her family. And I truely admire her and thank her for it. And that is why the wisest person is my mother. Thank you mommy, I love you.
 
Well...That's a wise answer! Leaves never fall far from trees, do they?

"จะรักแต่คนมีคู่ จะสู้เพื่อแย่งของเขา จะเอามาเป็นของเรา ถึงเขาจะเศร้าแต่เรา สะใจ"

"I will only hit on someone who is already taken. I will fight for that one and win over him/her. No matter what it takes or how bad it looks or how hurtful his/her lover has to get through, I will still go for it and snatch his/her love...as long as I'm happy and pleased."

The future is the consequence of the present. It's a butterfly effect. One butterfly's flapping can cause the whole universe to shake.

What do I see in my girlfriend?
--> It's my life, my soul, my future, and my everything that only she has. I see my life partner in her. She creates my type. Whatever I do, I know that she's with me and I will always have her by my side. Baby, you are my VIP: Very Important Person and Very Incredible Partner! :)

--->Over my dead body<--- That's what I will say if someone wants us to be apart.

It's this moment that counts! Now everything I did is worthy and paid off! I'm happy. :)
To live is to love.
To give is to give! hehe

Nature is cruel

A  female lion is catching a mother zebra. The lion is squeezing the zebra's throat with her powerful jaws. The mother zebra is struggling for her life as her baby zebra is standing not too far from her watching its mother holding almost her last breath. As the zebra's eyes are closing, the lion is releasing her jaws slowly. Suddenly, the zebra uses her last energy and kicks the lion at the eyes. With the help of adrenaline, she jumps up as fast as she can, even before she gets to breathe in, and runs away from the lion with her little zebra. The lion only gets to look at them running away without any energy left to catch them. It's been almost 3 days since she last ate something. She walks desperately weakly back to her residence. As she is entering, her 2 baby lions are more desperate on the ground as they hardly have energy and strength to stand up. They know right away that there's no food again for the third day. And that's when the baby lions have their last breathe on earth.

Between the struggling mother zebra and the starving baby lions, which one should I feel sympathy for?

Whenever I say I won't drink, I always end up badly drunk.
I'll never drink again.
Cheers....to long living! Amen!

As Tears Go By

Today I found a long lost song that I didn't even know its title before. It's like a fate that made me come across it again after more than 15 years that I first and last heard it on a smoking ban TV commercial ads. I'd been looking for it from time to time but I had never found it before because I hardly remembered its lyrics. All I could recognise was only its music and rhythm. Surprisingly, I heard it again today on a show, House M.D., on TV again. If I hadn't watched it this afternoon, I wouldn't have known its title. Expecting or not, something always happens for a reason. I believe that. We will never know what will come into our lives.

I drive fast and I drive slowly at times

I've got one bad habit in driving. When I'm driving and someone is right behind my back and moves to another lane trying to overtake me, I'll let that one pass just half my car and then I will accelerate as fast as I can, not letting them pass too easily. Sometimes they just can't overtake me! hahaha That's when I'm satisfied. That's when I feel the victory even though it's just a small thing. hahaha

A man whose house is across the street, in front of my house is a lunatic. He is in his 60s and has no certain jobs. His house is a small shabby hut surrounded by bushes. He wears worn-out clothes. I've never seen him hang any washed clothes. I guess he doesn't do laundry. He doesn't have tap water but a well. He doesn't own any vehicles. He lives alone by himself. Each day, he walks his way to another district which is around 11 km away to do what...who knows? Maybe begging for some money. Seeing him struggle with his life, I began to wonder what's the point to live when there's no future for him. Well, I would consider an easier way if I were him. Well...maybe it's because he's insane. That's why he doesn't think much about living. If he is able to think about it a bit, he will see that he's now living for nothing. And what's the point for that? Whether it's today or tomorrow, his life will always still be the same. It's like passing each day and night is already a blessing for him. When there's nothing to look forward to, it's sad indeed. That's too depressing.

"Life is a gift, not a given."
well...is it?

One straight sentence from a girl to another girl --->  "I love you, Girlfriend!"

No one can tear us apart.

You built your time machine because of Emma's death. If she had lived, it would never have existed, so how could you use your time machine to go back and save her? You are the inescapable result of your tragedy, just as I am the inescapable result of you.

The Time Machine

And I just hate the beginning part of movies. I'm more into the ending part where all bad people get punished. They get what they give.

Self-centered people say "This place doesn't suit my life".

while

Modest people say "My life doesn't suit here"

"There's something you should know about me, Max. I'm very, very choosy... I'm also very, very suspicious; very, very irrational, and I have a very, very short temper. I'm also extremely jealous and slow to forgive. Just so you know."


Fanny Chenal's speech from A Good Year.
damn...I liked this movie. It cheered me up once when I fell.

I think I should recover my wit and accelerate it to be a bit quicker. It used to be one of my charms.

I wish I were there to take care of my girlfriend. She's sick now. Well...it's just a few hours flying away!!! We're not too apart. That's what I think. :)

Get well soon baby! I would really take care of you well when I got a chance! I promise you!

Have you ever heard about a talk show arranged by a monk? Well...it's happening here. I really don't agree that it should actually exist even though it's for good deeds or whatever. How come a monk be on a stage with a microphone like a pop star? Do the audients have to wave to greet him and scream out when he smiles? Is that called a religion?

And I just hate religious donation. Maybe I'm not religious. I think money has nothing to do with religions especially all monks. Faith is in heart, not in wallets. Don't ask for my money coz I won't donate it. I'm living at the present, not in the past nor the future. I don't pay for the next life. I pray.

Every company has at least one staff of these following: nasty, ugly, selfish, shoddy, without quality, stupid, awful, annoying, jealous, satiric. That's right. They're all best-described characteristics of my colleagues. Too bad that the stupid and annoying one sits next to me. 2 in 1! The satiric one sits back a few desks away. And the rest just sits all around the office. It's such a boring environment to mankind!

True love is to snatch and seize. Fake love is to let it go saying it's for the other's sake.

รักแท้คือการแย่งชิง รักไม่จริงคือการเสียสละ

Someone says "Dream as if you would live forever. Live as if you would die today"
I'm wondering how much we all could possibly follow that quote. In reality, I guess it's just impossible. However, I'll try.

What am I gonna do with my life from now on?
Well...I'm gonna eat, pray, and love!  :)

When you're not afraid of dying, then it means you're afraid of living.

When you go in search of honey, you must expect to be stung by bees.

- - Kenneth Kaunda - -

I'm living my life to the fullest. I'm trying to enjoy everything that comes to my life. Yeah it's in progress.

Life is all about taking options.

"I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one Kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it One!"


-City of Angels

Something is easy to get into but just hard to get out of.

"We all have a time machine , to go back in the past is the memory , to go in the future is a dream."
-The Time Machine

Welcome back...my dear holidays! hehe
It feels good to see you this fast! lol

My past and our present

~This is what the song is all about~

No need to know my past and what I'd been through.

It's not necessary. My story, my past, I already left it behind.

Before I met you, my life was blank and empty.

Since I met you, my life is better.

I changed to be a better person.

I want you to remember today, our present

and look forward to tomorrow.

I want you to know that from now on

I have only you.

My life just beginned when I met you.

All you need to do is just believe in me

I already gave you all of my heart.

Don't look at my past

Just stay with me till it breaks the next day

My life has a goal when I met you.

When there's a will, then there's a way.

:)

My girlfriend is my best friend and no other girls are my best friends, but just friends.

Oh well my dear holiday....
                ....see you again next month!  :(

So, i won't hesitate

no more, no more.

It cannot wait I'm sure.

There's no need to complicate.
Our time is short.

This is our fate.

I'm yours.

No more cooking!

My girlfriend and my future wife is gorgeous indeed. Don't let me find anyone saying that she doesn't look good! I'll kick their asses! hahaha! ;)

:)

"It's the road you take and the people you meet on the way that make all the difference."

This is a part of my life

• I don't clean the house floor unless it makes me slip or it really looks messy or unless I want to (which most of the time, I don't want to).
• I don't do the dishes unless there's no more space to put dishes in the sink or that I lack clean dishes to use.
• I don't iron clothes in advance unless I'm about to wear them.
• I don't clean the bathroom regularly unless it's really dirty or slippery.
• I don't wash my shoes so often unless they really stink.
• I don't do gardening nor planting.
• I don't raise fish.
• I don't change the bedsheets so often unless they are too dirty for me to sleep on.
• I don't fill the water bottles unless there're only few left in the fridge.
• I don't put things in their places. I tend to leave all my stuffs on the table in living room once I get home.

Every house chore isn't regular for me to do it unless it's really necessary.

Except for laundry, I tend to do it everyday when I can coz I don't want to make it a big load for the day after.

YEAH!!

It's all paid out, once I got to open it with you and know that you were excited!  hehe

What a sweet moment between two of us!

I like it!

:)

Ohh Rainy season.....

What a gloomy season!

The Women!

What a unique movie!

There's not a single human being called "men" in the movie at all!

The story just goes on with only refering to "men" but without actually showing "men" on scenes.

It must be cool when women are the only living things on earth.

hahaha

World must be livable in a way.

It's my world then!

"well...we work hard and so we play hard"! Maybe that's true.

Alright! At least let me give Rascal a bath today when it's still sunny. Don't bite me then!

How could I possibly know that it wouldn't be raining now? Now I missed a chance to do laundry for today. And I've just put it to a big load for tomorrow. Clapping to myself...well done...well done.

If someone makes us happy when we're with him/her, then we should not live without that person. That's why I always go after you, baby! :)

Damn pee problem...
I guess by the day you're completely gone, I'll be probably gone as well.

Oh well...how I hate rain and coldness! I'd better move to Sahara then. :S

"Do just what you want to do!" That's not what they ever actually tell me, not without being sarcastic and ironic.

For the dish that is considered the tastiest, no matter how many people like and praise it, if it's not my favorite, it's just a garbage to me.

It's weird. It's not fair. How come we have only 2 days off when we have to work for 5 days each week? Why not 3/4 or even better 4/3 so that it will be fair for us? Some people even work for 6 days and have only 1 day off! What could we do with just 1 day off per week?

"It's someone who makes your heart race to be with and that you love him/her because of what he/she is, not what he/she does. Use your head and follow your heart!"

Baby..you're that one to me. I wanna race and overcome all obstacles between us to be with you. I will. That's my vow.

I have

High potential but low determination!

lol

I'm this kind.

.../|\...

Earth's crust is moving all the time. That means the earth changes every minute and second. Mt. Everest gets higher and higher every year because the plates that collided to form it are still moving closer and closer, making it's harder and more challenging for people to climb and conquer it nowadays comparing to the past.

It's sad especially at the hook.

"When you finally get to listen to this song, I might not be around you. (I might be gone)"

..>_<..

Oh well...at least I'm living my life as I please at this moment, trying to be chilling day by day, to neglect things I don't wanna think about, and to let the world go as its way.

Have you ever met some stupid people who park their motorbikes like this?

Parking without thinking whether these car owners would have enough space to drive out or not!

It happened to me a few times and there was once that I left a note at the motorbike.

HAHAHA!

I wish these people would face the same situation as they did to others.

I'm glad we can talk just whatever we have on our minds even when it's a very personal issue. I think that's how life partners should be. We can share every single thing with each other. It's very clear to me that you're the one. You are my only one. I miss/love/want/need you so bad. :D

Virus

Dear Virus...

Do you know that you are the most stupid ceature on earth? You destroy and kill the host that you're dwelling on. Once that body dies, you die with it as well. That's called a suicide? You were born to kill others and die along with them. That's funny and stupid.

For fat people, their happiness must be when they are eating. It's predictable. But for me, I'm not really into eating. It doesn't make me happy. It's not my happiness.

Seriously, I feel out of society. I can't really communicate. That's why I named this blog "isolated-universe".

I hate rain. OMG! I really do. Sometimes I hate it so much that I wish there were no rain at all and I wouldn't care if the earth would die from drought.

Aren't they cute?

:)

I wish we had a bathtub so that I could float them there while taking a bath.

I've watched some traveling shows on TV. It's fun and encouraging me to go exploring the world when I'm still able to walk for miles and climb high mountains even though I'm not into trekking. Life is a challenge.

If I had to choose between dying in cold and dying in heat, I would rather die from coldness. Hypothermia won't make me suffer long. I would probably die while sleeping and dreaming.

If I could choose, I'd rather live as if the world were gonna end tomorrow.

Everything in this world is not only up to destiny but also our effort to acquire it because without an effort, we would never get what we want.

Why aren't there parachutes under plane seats instead of floatation devices?

:/?

Future is not for figuring out. That's why I'm living the present! It's a gift. That's why it's called the present. ;)

Friends talking..

Friend1:  umm, my girlfriend asked me to never talk to you again.
Friend2:  .....Oh...ok.   ..>_<..
Friend1: That's why I broke up with her. ^_^

Well...I wanna have Friend1 as my best friend. But I'll never have that one as my girlfriend. Friend1 makes the best friend but the worst lover. hahaha!

If he had cared about your feeling, he would have got rid of her to make you feel comfortable.

Being optimistic doesn't make the world better. Being pessimistic definitely doesn't either. But being optimistic makes us see the world in the better version.

Sometimes...

• Being rich doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does being poor.
• Having high social status doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does having low social status.
• Being successful doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does being failed.
• Being wise doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does being dumb.
• Getting high scores doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does getting low ones.
• Being pretty/handsome doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does being ugly.
• Being healthy doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does being ill.
• Smiling doesn't always mean happiness. And neither does crying.
• Being loved doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does being rejected.
• Being full doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does being hungry.
• Getting married doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does staying single.
• Giving doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does recieving.
• Being good doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does being bad.
• Saving doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does spending.
• Owning a business doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does being someone's employee.
• Running away from troubles doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does fighting.
• Being comforted by lies doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does getting hurt by truth.

What makes humans happy then?
Live the life to the fullest! That's what I heard...but...should I?
Am I talking philosophy here? hahaha...as if I knew it! ;)

Stupid damn pee....why don't you just kill me? or else you leave me alone!

hate list (additional)

• when I want to drink coffee but I am scared of suffering from wanting to pee
• when water fills up my bladder and I can only dispose just too little
• lies, lying, and liars
• expectation on me but not a trust
• dramatically good and innocent ppl (i hate dramas especially soap operas)
• rush hours when I'm in hurried
• lacking
• etc..

I'm confident that you will never find anyone like me ever again. hehe. How does that sound? Does it make me worthier or creepier? hahaha :)

Beautiful quotes!

"When I give you my time, I’m giving you a portion of my life that I will never get back. So don’t waste it."

"It’s not certain whether the one you have now is the one you’ll be with for the rest of your life. There’s no even guarantee if the one you just met is the one who will love you forever. Because there’s no such thing as the ideal man or woman, no such thing as the right person or the right one. It is us who can make love to last a lifetimes, so if ever somebody asks you, “Is s/he the right one?” You may answer, “I’m not sure. But I intend to make him/her my only one.”

-http://lycra.tumblr.com/

It seems like we have a never-ending conversation whenever we talk. It feels so good. We click! :)

It does really feel great to have a girlfriend, especially the girl like you, Jia Lin! I will never have you enough, so be prepared for me asking for your love and attention all the time! I love you, girl! :)

1234

There's only 1 thing 2 do,

3 words 4 you,

"I love you".

There's only 1 way 2 say

those 3 words and that's what I'll do !

"I love you"

(I will)
Give you more lovin' from the very start!
Piece you back together when you fall apart!
Tell you things I never even tell my closest friends!
(And I hope you'll do the same)
:)

Umm, I hate social events and ceremonies. I really hate attending any of them. People, tell me none! Pls? Let me be isolated in my own space!

I wish I knew how to control my dream. I would make it so livable that I wouldn't wake up.

"next natural step"

cool phrase!

I like it!

;)

Inception

It's a very brilliant movie. Maybe it's too brilliant for a dumb like me. haha! Twisted also.

10 hours of real world time means 1 week in the first level dream, 6 months in the second level and 10 years in third level dream. If you die in the dream before the sedative wears off, you will go into a limbo, a lower world of dreams which could mean eternity to a mind stuck in there. One character asks "Who would want to spend 10 years in a dream?". Another character replies "Depends on the dream".

For me, if the dream is all about us, just you and me. I am definitely willing to spend all my time in the dream even if it means 10 years or eternity. I don't mind if I will be stuck there forever...as long as I get to spend the rest of my life with you, baby. Truely!

Age of building up! I'm in it now. I'm building up something which can mean anything that exists in this world. I'm collecting my experiences and my identities and piecing them up together to form myself. This can last, I'm hoping. As we're growing up, we're losing something; innocence and youth, for example. I hate it when time strikes me, especially when time at a clock tells me that I'm running out of time and it's time for me to go to bed.

A day has just passed. Thinking about it, each day passes so quickly. It means that my holidays will be over soon. But that's alright. It goes fast, then it will come fast! hahaha!

It happens to be the song that I love! hehe!

She really reminds me of you, baby.

:)

"I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend.

I'm lucky to have been where I have been."

"They don't know know how long it takes,

waiting for a love like this.

Everytime we say goodbye,

I wish we had one more kiss.

I'll wait for you.

I promise you, I will~~~~!"

P.S. The lyrics is for my baby Jia Lin. :)

The greatest stuff on Youtube ever!

"I was disappointed...but I also loved my child. I also know that my first question when she was born was if she had 10 fingers and 10 toes. I didnt ask a nurse if the kid's gonna grow up to be gay. I wanted to know if she was healthy. My answer was yes she had 10 toes and 10 fingers and she was healthy. And she remains healthy and she still has 10 fingers and 10 toes. So she's exact the same person as she always was and what I wanted her to be."

Baby, I didn't post this to pressure on you nor to make you feel uneasy and heavy, alright? I just like the vid and what the mom shares with people like us. Sometimes we all need to hear from others and learn from their experiences. I just need this vid to be on my blog for people who may come across and for who I am.

Baby, you know that I will never abandon you nor leave you alone no matter what happens, don't you?
Am I worth your trust?
(I hope I am)
:)

Some people say that being gays and lesbians is sinful, God hates them, they're not following God's will, and bla bla bla. Well, actually I'm a God's creation. If they hate gays and lesbians, they should actually hate their God who makes us this way. Society is made of diversity. Get used to it!

I had an conversation with a guy. He's chinese and he hates gays, of course. I shot a question at him asking if he were gay, would he pretend that he's a straight? He said "No". Then I went on with a question asking if he would just be himself. One word from him is "Yes". Then I hung my final question at him asking "Then you wouldn't hate gays anymore?" He said "Maybe". At that second I really wanted to laugh at his uncertainty but I didn't. People are like this. They lack awareness and deep thinking. They will just judge things and other people on surface without putting themselves on their shoes. Before judging others, they really need to put themselves in their situation first. When it comes to themselves, they would know how we feel and what it's like to be gays and lesbians. They wouldn't blame nor hate themselves for who they are 'coz it's human nature to love itself. This guy is for example. The whole conversation took just 1 minute and he changed his thought within 60 seconds. Maybe he didn't completely change what he thought but at least he started to feel unsure and uncertain. That's my tiny winning! hehe

They're great, aren't they?

Cool singing!

Nice covering!

I want nobody nobody but you!

;)

Well..i've been sitting here for more than 5 hrs now. I was getting sleepy but now I'm not. As I'm sitting here, a thought came up on my mind; a thought about turning 20s when I was still in my 10s. Of coz when I was young, I didn't think much about future. If I had thought about it just for a second, I wouldn't have been here. I would definitely have chosen the other path of studying. Well, who would know that, right? Anyway, since I can't turn back time to fix things, I'd better deal with the consequence of my decision. I had hardly thought about growing up when I was a kid. I and some of my school friends used to make a pact to go to London when we turned 25. But well, as you know, children are like this. They tend to say anything they want. Most of the time, it's non-sense. Frankly, I don't even know where all my school friends are now. We lost contact since we moved to different high schools. I don't mind that fact though. It's so common here. People say that 20s is the coolest range of age. Maybe it's because several things are building up during it. We graduate, get a job, get more freedom since we earn our own money, become adult, get to know lots of people, find a gf/bf, learn to live on our own, etc. It looks like things are starting. For me, 20s is the most mysterious range of age. Things are so unclear towards us. Who knows if the way we're heading to is the right way? What if there's no turning point for us? I used to hate making decision when I was young and I still do now. The path between Grade 9 and 10 was so uneasy to me because I had to make a decision. I've been doubting all the time if I chose the wrong one. I don't like co-ed schools. hahaha

Explain it to them or explain to them respect.

hahaha!

that's cool!

Baby, your hubby is still here even when you told me not to stay up late. I'm sorry baby. I didn't mean to be disobedient on your words but I just feel like staying up a little bit late tonight. Hehe! I hope you won't mind that, will u? This night is so calm. It's mildly raining now. I can even hear the rain drops drop on the ground. The night is so quiet. I now understood when people say that it's so quiet that they can hear their own thoughts! hehe. I may exaggerate. :)

If we fail on something, we can/should start it all over again. We should hold on to this. That's what I'm feeling now! :)

Alright, I really should get going now. I'm starting to feel sleepy now. At least I'm still human. lol

I was playing a Youtube vid of a girl singing happy birthday to her friend in a very overacting version. Her words seemed so long 'coz she dragged all of them. That's when my mom and my sister caught her voice. Mom started to comment first by asking me "What's going on over there?". Then my sister supported her by saying "Yeah! What's going on there?" hahaha! I just paused the vid and never played it again 'coz I was asking the same question to the girl as well. hehe.

I'm just wondering what it's like to be born in an English speaking country, how good my English could be when it's my mother tongue. If I moved and lived there, would my English be able to catch up with those asians' who were born and raised there? Well, 'm doubting it. hahaha! I just want my English to be spontaneous! I'm trying to make it now. :)

I like the lyrics! hehe

Well written!

You got to rest now, Stephen.
Rest in peace!

I can't wait to live the life that I want! hehe

I'm exhausted.

"-_-"

Hi World,

I'm not gonna intervene anybody's life from now on. And no one should really intervene mine either.

Peace!

Message to Bella,

If you will be this uncertain, why did you want him back at first?

Why did you jump off that cliff and act like you couldn't live without him?

You can't keep them both, you know!

That day is coming, the day you have to choose.

Baby, remember that none of them has felt this way (the way we're feeling now), alright? What we both have been sharing with each other for more than one year  is worthy, of course, or else we wouldn't have been this far. Don't you think? What keeps us together still is our tight bound which we don't share with others. I wanna be strong for you, of course! You know that I'll always be by your side, don't you? I hope you will trust and believe in me and my will. Don't easily quit on things that you've never even tried...please..for me and for us! I'm up to anything as long as it's with you and that's all I can offer. I don't want others to take care of you. I myself want to take on that job, to take care of my girlfriend, wife, life partner, or whatever the terms are, as long as these words mean you - the girl I chose. I love you...who knows how much? Only we know!

Happy Anniversary, Jia Lin!

:)
Hubby needs to bathe now!

Hi World! I'm meeting you here at this late again. My girlfriend asked me why I would reward myself. hehe. Maybe, it's time to do so. I feel as if I hadn't given anything to myself at all so far. The last time that I actually gave myself something is when I bought my own fully upgraded PC a couple years ago. It wasn't that blissful to me though but at least I gave myself what I wanted for long time. So now, the question that is rising on my mind is how far and serious could I go for what I want in life? It's not the hardest thing to do in life though. I still have faith and I'm keeping it.

For me, I have a lot of flaws that I'm not ashamed of them though because they are me. I am who I am and I can't be what I'm not. And for some situations, I can compromise for better outcomes.

Damn it. I'm thirsty! Why am I always thirsty at night before going to bed? It's so unfair. During the day, I'm not thirsty at all. Why is it striking me now? Water is there in the fridge but I just can't touch it. I don't wanna get up in the middle of the night to pee. My disposal system isn't so functional. And yeah I feel tired now but I just don't wanna go to bed just yet. Stupid period is still here. And I haven't even taken a bath yet. Stupid class tomorrow as if I cared! HAHAHA! Collapsing soon. Just breathing. The area around my eyes is tired. I can feel its thickness. Goodnight World.

I've been starring at the screen for a while thinking about what to blog tonight. It's not that I don't have anything to say though but I don't know how I should start and what I should bring up first. Ummmm, I think I'd better talk about driving. I feel free when I drive fast. When I drive passing and overtaking others from left to right and from right to left, it's just awesome. And I really don't understand those people who drive slowly in the fast lane. Other people have to pass them from the slow lane. I press the horn and flash them with lights when they get in my way and block me with their super low speed. Some have their common sense and move to the slow lane but some just don't feel anything. Fellows, you got your heads just to wear hats? Be smart! ok? Use what your parents gave you inside your heads!

And I just got an urge to work at night shift! Don't question me 'coz I don't have an exact answer for it though. HAHAHA! Maybe it's because I have spent more time at night so I've become gradually acquainted with the night. I feel it's such a waste to sleep too early each day. That why I got myself to bed at after 11 plus. Surprisingly, I still have energy to work at 7.30 am. Am I one of X-Men? hehe

I got this message by chance and it's so true!

Money has no value unless we spend it.

We spend it and we can earn it back!

But it's defferent with time and moments.

Once we spend them, we can't earn them back.

Time and moments have their value then, don't they?

And I got an urge to spend somehow!

lol

Goodnight World!

Greatest love of all!

Baby..when you believe in yourself and your power to obtain what you are seeking and searching for, then you will find the greatest love of all..inside you!

You've got all my supports in anything and will always!

This blog has come to its ending. Thanks for following me.

It's just that you are the only thing that I've been waiting for. That's all. It keeps me going.

nuts

A friend asked me "What's wrong with you? Going crazy?" hahaha

And I didn't deny!

Does that mean I admitted?

Since I changed my working days, I myself also changed as well.

I don't know what else to blame. It must definitely be it.

Seeing and knowing that we're growing up has made me uneasy.

Realising how my life should be is frustrating.

Meeting people with same age is upsetting.

I can't help it except to ignore them.

That's right.

Whenever I face them, I always escape to my own world.

I feel safer under my shell.

I really feel uneasy at crowded places.

I feel like everyone is watching at me somehow.

That's why I hardly meet anyone's eyes.

I don't wanna make a scene so I keep quiet and ignorant.

Sometimes I go angry and hope that they won't bother me.

choosy

Life is all about choosing. At a certain time, we have to pick something. In our life, there will always be ways and choices for us to choose.

that was too much

Because I was at the bottom of a deep ocean. I was down. Oh right! I realised.

~"~'

The frown is getting obvious. And there's nothing I can do to stop it.
I guess I'll just have to let it be.

Bright night!

Moon halo!

She's so gorgeous!

googoogaagaa

I'm already 26 years old. Yet, I'm acting like 10. I'm such a childish girl. I think I'll be my Baby's baby for always. :) I love you, Baby.

Låt den rätte komma in

Damn it! I so fuckin love this film. I blogged right after I watched.

I don't like the boy. He's too weak. But I like how the girl helps him get revenge on them.

And I like it at the end when they decide to get away together.

Emotional Quotient

I think my EQ and IQ are not equal. It's lower. Maybe it's because my IQ is too high or else my EQ must be too low. hahaha

17/05/10

Now I've known you for a year!

^_^

One great year and I'm looking forward to many more years to come!

Our first anniversay of meeting each other!

wow o_O'

She said that, at first, she thought buying a car would make her happy. In fact, she said it didn't. She is still unhappy and depressed. It has come to a point where she doesn't know what her happiness is. While I was talking to her, I was surprised to know that we were just the same. I told her that I knew how it felt. I didn't just say it but I really knew it.

Thanks for sharing this with me...sis^^

Pink Dot 2010

Pink Dot 2010

Love and equality for all!

Supporting the freedom to love!

Tired

I'm sorry, baby. I'm physically tired. I'm also mentally tired of things that I myself don't even know what they are exactly. And I always do things that I will regret later.

Brrrr!!!

A ghost movie is being aired right now. I don't watch it at night because I don't wanna frighten myself when I'm alone in my room. So, I'm not really watching it. I'm turning my back on it and let my sister watch it with Rascal. Still, I can hear its soundtrack.

11/05/10

Happy 11th month of being girlfriends! hehe!

I love you the most!

Till death do us part!

I'm her superman!

I want to be dependable for my girlfriend in everything. I know I will...with all my wits and guts! ^_^

You can trust in me, baby! I will take care of you myself!! Promise!

I'm thin ^^

The reason why I went on a diet 2 years ago (although I wasn't fat at all and people said I looked good back there) is because I realised that I felt uncomfortable when wearing all my jeans and pants. I didn't wanna change them with bigger sizes so I decided to cut down my food and stop going to gym (I gained weight from it because I would always be hungry after going to gym so I ate twice more than usual). I was 56 kg that time and I'm now 51.5 kg. Back to the same and I'm intending to keep my weight this light. I don't know if it works for other people but it works for me whenever I eat less. I know that it isn't good to do so and it's not so healthy but I'm happy with it. hehe. I think I can't be slimmer than the current me. no worries no worries!

not sociable...

I'm so not ready for any kinds of socialising. I'm sorry baby if that's what you are expecting or what you think I will be. I'm not into meeting people, especially new folks. I don't like meeting up nor going out. I hate crowded places, all kinds of centers. I really look blank out there. I always look around and wonder why I'm there. I look up to the ceiling and look down on the floor with empty mind. There's no place that I can rest my eyes at. It makes me really exhausted.

May Day May Day~!

And one week has just passed by! My 2 days off are ahead. THX! Here comes Ms. May. I really can't think about any resolutions for this month yet. hahaha. Should I?

I hope things won't go in vain!

(I just wanna play with the words vein and vain)

hahaha

I really love these veins on my arms!

I will hold you tight with these arms, baby!

I won't let go nor giving up.

just 1 more month

I think I need sugar now. I hope it will be like this for just 1 more month and then I can get my usual days off back. It's a very uncomfortable situation when you know it's the thing that you should/have to do but you don't wanna do it and you can't just avoid. It's called responsibility and maturity. Who else would do if I didn't volunteer? Well..I'm just murmuring.

Cold Truth

"What did you see in her when you first met her?"

He said, "Her beauty. She is the most beautiful girl I've ever seen."

"What did you see in him when you first met him?"

She said, "His Mercedes."

HAHAHA! OMG! So funny!

artist!

That's the greatest!
Master of arts!
I wish I could draw like this!
Starting with eyes is the way?

Drawing!

That's right! My drawing is in progress now. I drafted with a plain pencil and then I started to draw shades with 6B and now I think I need EE for the deep shades! I will buy it later then.

The draft!

Shadowing process!

Stuck because of EE!

Well...at least I actually put my effort on it!

Shall see how it will be when I get the EE!

Hobbies

I bought drawing paper and i was about to start drawing again but I lost inspiration. It's too bad that drawing needs inspiration. I don't know if I'm forcing myself to draw or just convincing myself that I need to find a hobby. I actually thought about learning violin, piano, or guitar but I'm not sure if I really want to do it. I'm afraid that if I apply for it, I won't do it well and I may quit during a half way. Then it will be just a waste of time and money (which I really need it). Hobbies require time and it's obvious that I have plenty! I can't say anything right now because it's unexplainable.

~"~

My thoughts, temper, mood, and life are like these wires, twisted all together.

Sometimes it's difficult to distinguish.

Really messy!

What Dreams May Come

BESIDE YOU

We follow the river down into the stream

That's where my dream began

I left my worries to the people who stare

And dreamed without a care

* That (yes) I'd always be beside you

To watch the day and night

And we listen to the sunrise

And feel it's growing light

And peace will come inside so quiet

Wherever we're going, I don't know

For a million years our love keeps growing

The mystery deepens, day by day

But trust my love, and hear me say

Peace will come inside so quiet

I watched this movie today. It's sad and happy somehow I can't really tell.
The melody of this song is warmly sad. I like the hook!
I love you, Jia Lin.

stuffy!

HOT

HOT

HOT

Is it Sahara here?

OMG!

Mother F*** Nature

I'm sorry, World and Society. There're a lot of things you created that I put my hatred on them. I really can't explain it clearly because I don't know what it is exactly. Nature is unfair. A buck has horns to protect himself while a doe has nothing. I wish I were a scientist.

easy!

That damn festival that pissed me off yesterday.

More than a thousand people were there, celebrating this ugly fest, skins to skins~! I really don't know why they wanted to get themselves into that too-crowded place! All drunks, dirties, and sicks were there.

What I and my sister just cooked!

It's supposed to be my lunch tomorrow!

I like this dish. It's pretty easy to cook, just a few ingredients: spaghetti, pork, garlic, small tomatoes, basil, soy sauce, and black pepper.

damn festival

I hate all festivals.

I hate crowded places.

I hate heat.

I hate sweating.

I hate loudness.

I hate dirty toilets!!!!!

I hate stupid people like him today who shot me with that water gun!

Why do I sound like a spoiled kid?

Let the rain be pesticide everywhere!

Stupid mosquitoes keep biting my face. Why don't you just become extinct? I think you're not doing any good to anyone in this world at all.

Johnnie Johnnie!

I found it's too tingle! Maybe there's soda mixed too much.

Bottom up!

I wish I could be as smart as Nobel Prize-winning scientists in Chemistry. They can create lots of powerful substances. It must feel great!

always me

You are right baby. I always get angry.
I talked to that female stranger whose car was blocked by a man's pickup truck.
"what a jerk he is, to park like that! he should have moved long time ago."

and I also shouted at an old guy who was walking on the street with his walking aid and acted as if he was a traffic police by waving his hand for others to pass by even though the spot that he was standing at is in the middle of the street. He didn't know at all that he was blocking the street.
"Watch out uncle! Or else you will get yourself killed by cars."

10 now ^^

Today is our 10 months anniversary. Thank you for always caring for me. Thank you for always being a great girlfriend to this silly girl. You are always my best. You are my missing part. You complete me. Remember that you will always have a family here, ok? I love you baby~! I love you.

chicks

MF disgusting couples! Girls, are you hungry for guys that much? Letting them hug and hold you in public! Even took pictures and showed them to the whole world! Damn, I really wanna see your parents' faces when they know their daughters are this sl**! Creepy land! Only three months of seeing each other but let them kiss your hands already? I'm wondering what will be left when it hits 6 months! That's right! Nothing! Go on! Wear super shorts and get close to them! Skins near skins! At the end, it will be just like tennis! You guys will be the ball that players(guys) push away to others! And No one will ever want you.

Resolution for this year: I will hate them more!

samson

Damn! I need to build up my body. I'm too weak right now. All my strength and muscles have gone long time ago since I stopped going to gym. I was 56 kg. I did weights alot.

Bites

I heard strange news! It's about a guy being bitten by a cobra at his leg. He got down and grabbed it with his hands and hit it against the ground. He got another bite at his face. This time he was so pissed off that he bit it back! Anyway, his body was found in the next morning with a dead cobra in his hand. There were several bites and wounds on the cobra's body. There was blood in the guy's mouth. Well, he got it pay back very well. "If I have to die, I will drag you with me!" (he must have thought like this for sure!)

+_+

I hate STRAIGHTS! I hate COUPLES! I hate SHOW OFFS! I hate their GUTS! I hate FRIENDLINESS! I hate SOCIETY! I hate SMALL TALKS! I hate CHICKS! I hate DUDES! I hate IDENTITY! I hate GENDERS! I hate YOUTH! I hate TIME! I hate COWARD! I hate COOL ACTS! I hate EQ! I hate RUSH! I hate HEAT! I hate LIVELINESS! I hate GUILT! I hate STRENGTH! I hate UGLINESS! I hate SMART! I hate CHANGING MIND! I hate NAGGING! I hate ALL EXES! I hate HIM! I hate LOUDNESS! I hate IT! I hate WEDDINGS! I hate FASHIONS! I hate CHILDREN! I hate GREEN THOUGHTS! I hate 4 EYES! I hate TRADITION! I hate RACES! I hate ROLES! I hate IN-LAWS! I hate HARD TRUTHS! SHITFACE!

HELLO

Hello World!

I love my girlfriend a lot.

Can you all hear me?

days off

Why do holidays make me feel more tired than workdays?

Why are there many stuffs for me to do on days off?

I hate chores! I hate plants! I hate gardening!

-_-'

today's sin

I'm sorry, Mother Bird. I didn't have any choices. I had to remove it today. I did all i could to save your nest, your home. I placed it in a place nearby. Although I know your nature, I still hope you will come back. There're 3 eggs waiting for their mother. If you dont come back, it means I killed 3 innocent lives today. I really can't hatch for you. I'm sorry, Red-whiskered Bulbul.

2 possibilities

I hate them for what they can give you and I just can't. And I may lose you to them for what I don't have. Guys just go to hell!

I thought I was over it.

Into the wild

On September 6, 1992, 2 hikers and a group of moose hunters found a note on the door of an abandoned bus:

"S.O.S. I need your help. I'm injured, near death, and too weak to hike out of here. I'm all alone, this is no joke. In the name of God, please remain to save me. I'm out collecting berries close by and shall return this evening."

His body was found in his sleeping bag inside the bus. He had been dead for more than 2 weeks. His official cause of death was starvation.
 
He died on his dream. He had his guts!

L.I.F.E

"It's having someone like you to see me through both the good times and the bad times that makes me so sure!"

Life's never been easy but having you in my life makes it livable. It never runs smooth but it isn't too rough!

It's so fortunate that we met, we found, and we have each other to get both of us through all times. We support each other! How nice we are! How blessed we are!

I will never leave you to face all troubles alone. I SWEAR!

High Day

Dairy Queen Take Home

So full!

Lindt 70% Dark Chocolate!

(it's sour) hahaha!

Baby! I happened to see a couple of Turtle Dove near the window!

They are lovers! I can feel! Normally, Turtle Dove will go out and look for food with their mates!

They are nice creatures!

Memory

I think I don't have to translate this song into English 'coz there's Chinese subtitle at the bottom.

Well, it's a very old song but I still like it a lot. I like the music, especially the lyrics and also the tone of the singer. The composer is a genius. Sometimes this song got my tears although I was not sad. Maybe it made me think of those who were parted from my life.

You guys were the best!

Tue Mue, you was my best! I'm sorry. I should have taken care of you more.

I miss you all!

Yearbook

YEARBOOK

I opened it by chance. I didn't expect to see these pictures.

Those were the happy days when we were altogether.

Then those days just came back to me.

I felt worried 'coz it's like we already forgot one another.

We all went to separated ways and far away.

Then one day we no longer saw each other. We didn't realise that.

However, all these happy memories always stay the same

in this old yearbook!

In the picture, you smiled and I was right next to you.

I looked at it and it made me cry.

Oh dear..how many years ago? How are you guys?

We gradually forgot one another.

I don't know why all about us had to end.

I looked for phone numbers in the yearbook.

I found none.

Only addresses were stated.

I wrote a letter asking if you could still remember me.

I would never know if the address I got was correct.

All I can do is just to hope that memories will never die to us.

28 march

Save the world? hahahaha I wanna laugh at it. We all will have been gone long time ago before it dies. Why do I have to save it when I wont be living to see it?

March

She's huge, isn't she?

The dessert we made this afternoon. It's pretty easy, just put all instant ingredients together!

At a temple where we released turtles to a river near there!

A turtle that I released! I told it to just go away far from here!

At first, I didn't feel anything but after thinking about it seriously, I wanna shout What a temple! I think it's full of sins coz lots of animals are locked down and captured, waiting for us to pay for their freedom! If you see what I saw today, you will think the same. How can animals be captured and locked down within temple area? Is it a zoo or a circus? Birds were forced to be in tiny cages. Other river animals were in buckets! I would understand if I saw all this at a market or somewhere else, but for Christ's sake, it's TEMPLE! I know that there will always be people who will buy to set them free but they can't buy all of them, right? The merchants make profits on the sin. Screw them! How can they do this business in the temple? We flush our money to them easily as if we encourage them to do so. We set those animals free for they will be captured to be there once again? It's ironic that right next to that selling area, they sold bird food. I saw some people buy it and fed birds that were free. The birds that were captured were in the cages near there! They must have felt something! Why me? Why aren't I there instead?

Anyway, I prayed today. I made a wish for all people I love to be happy, healthy, and strong forever.

Present

"One day at a time - this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone. And do not be troubled about the future, for it has not come yet. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering!"

This is a quote I got from a book at a library long time ago (university time). The first time I read it, I just liked it and it hit me right through my heart so much that I wrote it down on my notebook. This saying is somehow quite right, isn't it? Everyday that we spend time together is just beautiful. You are making my days and nights beautiful. You are the most beautiful thing that has ever happened in my life. Everything between us is worth more than remembering. It's worth my breath, my heart, and my soul. It's worth more than my life. :)

That's why it's called "the present" 'coz it's the gift!

You are my present and my future!

You are a gift to my life!
You are my existence!

waiting list

It's like it's waiting to show up someday soon. It's here. I can feel it. However, I still have many things that I wanna do. There are many things in my waiting list. Everything I did, I've done, I do, and I will do is reasonable. People say I'm reasonable! hahaha! Baby..everything that I decide to do is from my brain's processing, alright? It means I think about it carefully enough. I just hope you will understand me :) Actually, this post is nothing. hahaha

that's silly

What's the most stupid thing I've ever done?

hahaha! I really have no ideas!

cooking~

Sunrise this morning! It wasn't so clear 'coz of pollution!

Here are what I bought to cook this evening!

No meat! No pork! No protein!  lol

Taa Daa!!

All done!  hahaha!

It doesn't look so yummy but still eatable!

It's gonna be my lunch at work tomorrow!

We're gonna save up as much as we can for our future, alright?

I love you!

today~

air pollution has reached its climax!

(I took this picture while I was driving. hahaha)

Sunset this evening!

Goat Milk!!!

Yesterday I bought a small bottle of goat milk to try! I heard that it didn't taste so good but I wanted to taste it myself and judge it with my tongue. After one sip, I knew how it tasted! It is more concentrated than cow milk. It has stronger smell. I think it contains more fat. I didn't enjoy it of course! It took me totally 2 days to finish the whole bottle. It says it is more digestible but it is way harder to swallow!!!! BRRRRRRR~

German Dishes!

Streamed Pork with Gravy

Spagetti

Fried Ham with Mashed Potato

Fried Potato Salad with Pork and Gravy

Buns and Potato Salad

Fried Sausages

I went to a restaurant which is a little bit far. I drove through rice fields and I saw cows, buffaloes, and horses. lol. Nice countryside! Nice place to stay!

I love countryside!

The food is really nice.

It was buffet and we ate a lot!

It's worth every baht we paid! :)