all about temper

We were on the way back home. I was driving and there was a car running by in opposite directions. The street was narrow so I kept close to the roadside. I noticed there was a hole at the roadside but there was no ways I could stop in time nor avoid it so I drove through it. My mom suddenly said and nagged at me which I really couldn't remember now. Suddenly I lost my control and I shouted "Who the hell would notice that hole when it was at the edge of street? Shit!". Right after that, there was a long silence till my mom broke it by telling me to calm down as I was still driving quite fast. My sister also told me to keep cool. I didn't say a word, just kept driving. I felt uneasy inside. One part of me wanted to shout to release all my tempers but another part wanted to apologize them especially mom. However, I said nothing. Mom said that she wanted to take us to a temple this weekend and might buy fish to release it for our own virtue. My sister agreed with her idea. She said there were uneasy things and feelings happening these days.