Friends talking..

Friend1:  umm, my girlfriend asked me to never talk to you again.
Friend2:  .....Oh...ok.   ..>_<..
Friend1: That's why I broke up with her. ^_^

Well...I wanna have Friend1 as my best friend. But I'll never have that one as my girlfriend. Friend1 makes the best friend but the worst lover. hahaha!

If he had cared about your feeling, he would have got rid of her to make you feel comfortable.

Being optimistic doesn't make the world better. Being pessimistic definitely doesn't either. But being optimistic makes us see the world in the better version.

Sometimes...

• Being rich doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does being poor.
• Having high social status doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does having low social status.
• Being successful doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does being failed.
• Being wise doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does being dumb.
• Getting high scores doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does getting low ones.
• Being pretty/handsome doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does being ugly.
• Being healthy doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does being ill.
• Smiling doesn't always mean happiness. And neither does crying.
• Being loved doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does being rejected.
• Being full doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does being hungry.
• Getting married doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does staying single.
• Giving doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does recieving.
• Being good doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does being bad.
• Saving doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does spending.
• Owning a business doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does being someone's employee.
• Running away from troubles doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does fighting.
• Being comforted by lies doesn't guarantee happiness. And neither does getting hurt by truth.

What makes humans happy then?
Live the life to the fullest! That's what I heard...but...should I?
Am I talking philosophy here? hahaha...as if I knew it! ;)

Stupid damn pee....why don't you just kill me? or else you leave me alone!

hate list (additional)

• when I want to drink coffee but I am scared of suffering from wanting to pee
• when water fills up my bladder and I can only dispose just too little
• lies, lying, and liars
• expectation on me but not a trust
• dramatically good and innocent ppl (i hate dramas especially soap operas)
• rush hours when I'm in hurried
• lacking
• etc..

I'm confident that you will never find anyone like me ever again. hehe. How does that sound? Does it make me worthier or creepier? hahaha :)

Beautiful quotes!

"When I give you my time, I’m giving you a portion of my life that I will never get back. So don’t waste it."

"It’s not certain whether the one you have now is the one you’ll be with for the rest of your life. There’s no even guarantee if the one you just met is the one who will love you forever. Because there’s no such thing as the ideal man or woman, no such thing as the right person or the right one. It is us who can make love to last a lifetimes, so if ever somebody asks you, “Is s/he the right one?” You may answer, “I’m not sure. But I intend to make him/her my only one.”

-http://lycra.tumblr.com/

It seems like we have a never-ending conversation whenever we talk. It feels so good. We click! :)

It does really feel great to have a girlfriend, especially the girl like you, Jia Lin! I will never have you enough, so be prepared for me asking for your love and attention all the time! I love you, girl! :)

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There's only 1 thing 2 do,

3 words 4 you,

"I love you".

There's only 1 way 2 say

those 3 words and that's what I'll do !

"I love you"

(I will)
Give you more lovin' from the very start!
Piece you back together when you fall apart!
Tell you things I never even tell my closest friends!
(And I hope you'll do the same)
:)

Umm, I hate social events and ceremonies. I really hate attending any of them. People, tell me none! Pls? Let me be isolated in my own space!

I wish I knew how to control my dream. I would make it so livable that I wouldn't wake up.

"next natural step"

cool phrase!

I like it!

;)

Inception

It's a very brilliant movie. Maybe it's too brilliant for a dumb like me. haha! Twisted also.

10 hours of real world time means 1 week in the first level dream, 6 months in the second level and 10 years in third level dream. If you die in the dream before the sedative wears off, you will go into a limbo, a lower world of dreams which could mean eternity to a mind stuck in there. One character asks "Who would want to spend 10 years in a dream?". Another character replies "Depends on the dream".

For me, if the dream is all about us, just you and me. I am definitely willing to spend all my time in the dream even if it means 10 years or eternity. I don't mind if I will be stuck there forever...as long as I get to spend the rest of my life with you, baby. Truely!

Age of building up! I'm in it now. I'm building up something which can mean anything that exists in this world. I'm collecting my experiences and my identities and piecing them up together to form myself. This can last, I'm hoping. As we're growing up, we're losing something; innocence and youth, for example. I hate it when time strikes me, especially when time at a clock tells me that I'm running out of time and it's time for me to go to bed.

A day has just passed. Thinking about it, each day passes so quickly. It means that my holidays will be over soon. But that's alright. It goes fast, then it will come fast! hahaha!

It happens to be the song that I love! hehe!

She really reminds me of you, baby.

:)

"I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend.

I'm lucky to have been where I have been."

"They don't know know how long it takes,

waiting for a love like this.

Everytime we say goodbye,

I wish we had one more kiss.

I'll wait for you.

I promise you, I will~~~~!"

P.S. The lyrics is for my baby Jia Lin. :)

The greatest stuff on Youtube ever!

"I was disappointed...but I also loved my child. I also know that my first question when she was born was if she had 10 fingers and 10 toes. I didnt ask a nurse if the kid's gonna grow up to be gay. I wanted to know if she was healthy. My answer was yes she had 10 toes and 10 fingers and she was healthy. And she remains healthy and she still has 10 fingers and 10 toes. So she's exact the same person as she always was and what I wanted her to be."

Baby, I didn't post this to pressure on you nor to make you feel uneasy and heavy, alright? I just like the vid and what the mom shares with people like us. Sometimes we all need to hear from others and learn from their experiences. I just need this vid to be on my blog for people who may come across and for who I am.

Baby, you know that I will never abandon you nor leave you alone no matter what happens, don't you?
Am I worth your trust?
(I hope I am)
:)

Some people say that being gays and lesbians is sinful, God hates them, they're not following God's will, and bla bla bla. Well, actually I'm a God's creation. If they hate gays and lesbians, they should actually hate their God who makes us this way. Society is made of diversity. Get used to it!

I had an conversation with a guy. He's chinese and he hates gays, of course. I shot a question at him asking if he were gay, would he pretend that he's a straight? He said "No". Then I went on with a question asking if he would just be himself. One word from him is "Yes". Then I hung my final question at him asking "Then you wouldn't hate gays anymore?" He said "Maybe". At that second I really wanted to laugh at his uncertainty but I didn't. People are like this. They lack awareness and deep thinking. They will just judge things and other people on surface without putting themselves on their shoes. Before judging others, they really need to put themselves in their situation first. When it comes to themselves, they would know how we feel and what it's like to be gays and lesbians. They wouldn't blame nor hate themselves for who they are 'coz it's human nature to love itself. This guy is for example. The whole conversation took just 1 minute and he changed his thought within 60 seconds. Maybe he didn't completely change what he thought but at least he started to feel unsure and uncertain. That's my tiny winning! hehe

They're great, aren't they?

Cool singing!

Nice covering!

I want nobody nobody but you!

;)

Well..i've been sitting here for more than 5 hrs now. I was getting sleepy but now I'm not. As I'm sitting here, a thought came up on my mind; a thought about turning 20s when I was still in my 10s. Of coz when I was young, I didn't think much about future. If I had thought about it just for a second, I wouldn't have been here. I would definitely have chosen the other path of studying. Well, who would know that, right? Anyway, since I can't turn back time to fix things, I'd better deal with the consequence of my decision. I had hardly thought about growing up when I was a kid. I and some of my school friends used to make a pact to go to London when we turned 25. But well, as you know, children are like this. They tend to say anything they want. Most of the time, it's non-sense. Frankly, I don't even know where all my school friends are now. We lost contact since we moved to different high schools. I don't mind that fact though. It's so common here. People say that 20s is the coolest range of age. Maybe it's because several things are building up during it. We graduate, get a job, get more freedom since we earn our own money, become adult, get to know lots of people, find a gf/bf, learn to live on our own, etc. It looks like things are starting. For me, 20s is the most mysterious range of age. Things are so unclear towards us. Who knows if the way we're heading to is the right way? What if there's no turning point for us? I used to hate making decision when I was young and I still do now. The path between Grade 9 and 10 was so uneasy to me because I had to make a decision. I've been doubting all the time if I chose the wrong one. I don't like co-ed schools. hahaha

Explain it to them or explain to them respect.

hahaha!

that's cool!

Baby, your hubby is still here even when you told me not to stay up late. I'm sorry baby. I didn't mean to be disobedient on your words but I just feel like staying up a little bit late tonight. Hehe! I hope you won't mind that, will u? This night is so calm. It's mildly raining now. I can even hear the rain drops drop on the ground. The night is so quiet. I now understood when people say that it's so quiet that they can hear their own thoughts! hehe. I may exaggerate. :)

If we fail on something, we can/should start it all over again. We should hold on to this. That's what I'm feeling now! :)

Alright, I really should get going now. I'm starting to feel sleepy now. At least I'm still human. lol

I was playing a Youtube vid of a girl singing happy birthday to her friend in a very overacting version. Her words seemed so long 'coz she dragged all of them. That's when my mom and my sister caught her voice. Mom started to comment first by asking me "What's going on over there?". Then my sister supported her by saying "Yeah! What's going on there?" hahaha! I just paused the vid and never played it again 'coz I was asking the same question to the girl as well. hehe.

I'm just wondering what it's like to be born in an English speaking country, how good my English could be when it's my mother tongue. If I moved and lived there, would my English be able to catch up with those asians' who were born and raised there? Well, 'm doubting it. hahaha! I just want my English to be spontaneous! I'm trying to make it now. :)

I like the lyrics! hehe

Well written!

You got to rest now, Stephen.
Rest in peace!

I can't wait to live the life that I want! hehe

I'm exhausted.

"-_-"

Hi World,

I'm not gonna intervene anybody's life from now on. And no one should really intervene mine either.

Peace!

Message to Bella,

If you will be this uncertain, why did you want him back at first?

Why did you jump off that cliff and act like you couldn't live without him?

You can't keep them both, you know!

That day is coming, the day you have to choose.

Baby, remember that none of them has felt this way (the way we're feeling now), alright? What we both have been sharing with each other for more than one year  is worthy, of course, or else we wouldn't have been this far. Don't you think? What keeps us together still is our tight bound which we don't share with others. I wanna be strong for you, of course! You know that I'll always be by your side, don't you? I hope you will trust and believe in me and my will. Don't easily quit on things that you've never even tried...please..for me and for us! I'm up to anything as long as it's with you and that's all I can offer. I don't want others to take care of you. I myself want to take on that job, to take care of my girlfriend, wife, life partner, or whatever the terms are, as long as these words mean you - the girl I chose. I love you...who knows how much? Only we know!

Happy Anniversary, Jia Lin!

:)
Hubby needs to bathe now!

Hi World! I'm meeting you here at this late again. My girlfriend asked me why I would reward myself. hehe. Maybe, it's time to do so. I feel as if I hadn't given anything to myself at all so far. The last time that I actually gave myself something is when I bought my own fully upgraded PC a couple years ago. It wasn't that blissful to me though but at least I gave myself what I wanted for long time. So now, the question that is rising on my mind is how far and serious could I go for what I want in life? It's not the hardest thing to do in life though. I still have faith and I'm keeping it.

For me, I have a lot of flaws that I'm not ashamed of them though because they are me. I am who I am and I can't be what I'm not. And for some situations, I can compromise for better outcomes.

Damn it. I'm thirsty! Why am I always thirsty at night before going to bed? It's so unfair. During the day, I'm not thirsty at all. Why is it striking me now? Water is there in the fridge but I just can't touch it. I don't wanna get up in the middle of the night to pee. My disposal system isn't so functional. And yeah I feel tired now but I just don't wanna go to bed just yet. Stupid period is still here. And I haven't even taken a bath yet. Stupid class tomorrow as if I cared! HAHAHA! Collapsing soon. Just breathing. The area around my eyes is tired. I can feel its thickness. Goodnight World.

I've been starring at the screen for a while thinking about what to blog tonight. It's not that I don't have anything to say though but I don't know how I should start and what I should bring up first. Ummmm, I think I'd better talk about driving. I feel free when I drive fast. When I drive passing and overtaking others from left to right and from right to left, it's just awesome. And I really don't understand those people who drive slowly in the fast lane. Other people have to pass them from the slow lane. I press the horn and flash them with lights when they get in my way and block me with their super low speed. Some have their common sense and move to the slow lane but some just don't feel anything. Fellows, you got your heads just to wear hats? Be smart! ok? Use what your parents gave you inside your heads!

And I just got an urge to work at night shift! Don't question me 'coz I don't have an exact answer for it though. HAHAHA! Maybe it's because I have spent more time at night so I've become gradually acquainted with the night. I feel it's such a waste to sleep too early each day. That why I got myself to bed at after 11 plus. Surprisingly, I still have energy to work at 7.30 am. Am I one of X-Men? hehe

I got this message by chance and it's so true!

Money has no value unless we spend it.

We spend it and we can earn it back!

But it's defferent with time and moments.

Once we spend them, we can't earn them back.

Time and moments have their value then, don't they?

And I got an urge to spend somehow!

lol

Goodnight World!

Greatest love of all!

Baby..when you believe in yourself and your power to obtain what you are seeking and searching for, then you will find the greatest love of all..inside you!

You've got all my supports in anything and will always!