All of us have a thousand wishes, to be thinner, to have more money or a new phone. A cancer patient only has one wish - to kick cancer’s ass. In honor of someone who has died, or is FIGHTING cancer, post this on your blog for at least one hour. Show someone you care :)

This girl reminds me of someone, a friend actually and I haven't talked to her for weeks. She's a real beauty but I hope she will cut down on her drinking and smoking.

I feel like all along the way, I've picked wrong things and made wrong decisions. I mean, most of the time, things I've picked and decision I've made turned out to be nothing like I expected it would be. I chose to study language over science just because it was easier. And it didn't get me anywhere. I took the head position just to find out later that all it gave me is just suffering. I decided to take the current position and it's driving me mad. I decided not to buy a stock when its price was dropping because I didn't expect it to rise but now it's rising. I decided to sell a stock when its price was rising and it turned out that I sold it too fast. Its price still rose more and more. I thought I was confident enough when I made these decisions but I wasn't at all. Anyway, one thing I'm sure of and confident about my decision is that I chose this girl to be my life partner. I know I didn't chose the wrong girl. It's very certain and I've never had regret for this decision. I would do it again if I had to. I never had a question "Could it be easier if I didn't meet her?" but the only questions I ask myself are "What would I do if I didn't meet her? and "How could I live without her?". One thing I'm sure of is I do love her so much that others couldn't imagine. She's what I want in my life. She's the love of my life. She may not be the first person I gave my kiss to but she will be the last person I kiss from now on in this life.

The one I love

This warm message from my girlfriend is saved here. Everything precious between us is all saved here in my blog. It's safe. :)

My first trading paid off! I'm glad it turned out to be a profit, not a loss. :)
A fortune for me and my baby in the future!

:S

I had a very weirdly scary dream last night. It was about ghosts, 4 female ghosts who died from being burnt. It was very creepy. In the dream, I knew they were ghosts and they lived in a room next door. They haunted me and tried to disguise themselves to be like us. They tried to get into my room by crawling on roofs and tried to break into the window. I was really scared. It sent a shiver down my spine even when I was sleeping. When I woke up, I was still afraid of them. I didn't get to rest much last night because of this dream. It took all my energy even though it was just a dream. But as it was being played in my mind, it was so real...as real as I trembled. And now the question is why them? Why these 4 women? Did I know them from somewhere before? :/?

2008

In 2008, I wanted to watch the broadcasting of the Olympic which was held at Beijing, China, so badly. When it comes to international sport events like this, I always watch them on TV. I always watch swimming, female volleyball, gymnastics, synchronized swimming, running, and some other events when I get a chance. That year, I intended to watch the swimming events for as much as I could. I knew I had to work but I really wanted to watch them because it was once in four years. I couldn't watch them online or on tv at work so I tried to listen to the live broadcasting on radio but I found none. I made a small promise to myself that hopefully in the next 4 years when the next Olympic is held, I would be free from office work and already own a shop or something that I can be my own boss so that I could do whatever I want. Well, it's 2011 at the moment. Three years and a half have passed and I haven't even started anything that I promised to myself yet. I don't know what I was doing. Am I wasting my time on this company right now? Only less than a year to go and the Olympic will be held again. I feel like the thunder is gonna strike at the same place again. I may not get to watch it again.

I fucking miss my girlfriend especially those time when we were together

I've heard that when we are about to take our lives, there'll be ghosts watching and surrounding us. Some say that they're there to make us certain in doing it without any hesitation. They make us lose all desire to live. They need us to go with them. And at the second that we have our last breath, we'll see them. This only happens to those who really wanna die and already make up their minds. That's what I was told. It takes courage to commit a suicide. Those who did it were brave even though they were not when they were alive. There was a girl. She decided to end her life. She shut all her facebook and her blog accounts. At dawn, she dressed up, wearing her favorite dress and put on makeup. She was a real beauty. She didn't cry, not even a single teardrop fell from her eyes. She walked her way to the top of a building and jumped off. It took her courage since when she shut down all her accounts that showed her existence. The moment when she jumped off the roof top, she was even braver. I really wanna know what was on her mind the moment she took a step and jumped.

This is for you, Victoria

She asked "who would be busier than me?" She was there and she traveled a lot. She's worlds apart now.

My PC's desktop background at work is a picture of a girl spreading her right palm in front of the camera. I edited the picture typing the sentence "Talk to the fucking hand!" next to her palm. And this has been my desktop background ever since. I did it on purpose of course. I want people there to see it and get my hint. Before this picture, my background was a picture of a singer with a sentence "This is who the fuck I am".

They're right! There're only 2 kinds of people, dreamers and doers. Too bad that I'm the first kind. And gosh I regret doing so many things in my entire life. Lennon was right. There's no hell below us and above us is only sky.

A suicide bill for people with terminal illness...I totally support it. There's a clinic in Europe, which I can't remember the country, offering this service. I heard that there're quite a number of people going there. I would go there as well if, you know. Who wants to suffer until they die? Right? Most of the clients are cancer victims.

My veins are really obvious on my arms. They look as creepy as you'd imagine. Some of them are as huge as a straw. You may think I'm exaggerating here but what I say is true. So when nurses need to get my blood sample, it's very easy for them.

I'm having a headache right now but let's see how much I can post on this blog for tonight until I drop on the floor. What should I write here? Let me think! :? ....

Recently, there was a talk show performed by a monk. Can you believe it? Nowadays a monk performs a talk show. It's really inappropriate, I think. It's really disgusting to me. This makes me go against religion sometimes. At times I don't pay respect to monks if I find them not worth it. However, my mom usually drags me to the temple on some special days which I have to tag along. I pay respect to the Buddha statues because they're worth it.

If I had to lose any parts of my body, I'd rather die as one whole piece. If I were to go blind, deaf, paralysed, or crippled, I'd not live. Perhaps I'm not a fighter at all. haha

Life sucks from time to time. Once in a while it looks ok but several times it looks too hard to handle.

What do I feel after watching Transformers 3: Dark of the moon? Hmm...well just one thing, no one can ever replace Megan Fox. Its special effect is as great as you imagine. I won't deny that but what used to be a magnet for this movie is gone. That would be Megan Fox. It's nothing personal with the new actress though but I'm just more familiar with Megan and I can't help comparing and thinking of what if it were Megan. Anyway, lesson's learnt here. Sometimes something or someone can't be replaced no matter how better that may be. Just like my girlfriend, no one can really replace her even though I'm with other girls who may seem to be better or whatever. Until the end of time, I'll always be yours.

My girlfriend has been very busy and exhausted from her long studying, tough exams, and now rushing work. -__-'
I hope she'll be fine over there. It really sucks when I can't give her a hand to finish her things. I miss her so damn much! :(

This year, there were up to 10,000 people gathering and supporting the right to love.

Thank you you guys very much.

I would definitely be there if I could.

What you did really means something to our world.

Titanic

Isador and Ida were both offered a place on Lifeboat No. 8, but Isador chose to stay on the Titanic so long as there were women who remained on the ship. Ida refused to abandon her husband. Witnesses on the deck and in Lifeboat No. 8 heard Ida tell her husband, "We have been living together for many years. Where you go, I go."

I worship this kinda love. Never abandon each other no matter what happens.

Shawshank Redemption

Brooks hung himself there. Red didn't. He was just there at different time. But they both were once there even though it wasn't together.

A picture speaks itself.