HNY

Happy new year, no matter what year it is, may we be back to 2009, the year we met, the year we shared our love, our laughter, and our tears. Hope you and your family will have a great year in 2014 and so on.

Letter from the Moon

จดหมายจากพระจันทร์
Letter from the Moon

สวัสดีดวงตะวัน

Hi, dear Sun.

คืนนี้มีดาวเต็มฟ้าทอประกาย ภาระฉันจึงไม่มีมากมาย พอมีเวลานั่งเขียนถึงเธอ
Tonight the sky is filled with bright stars, so I'm not too busy to write you a letter.

อยู่สบายไหมตะวัน เราไม่ค่อยได้เจอกันเลยใช่ไหม

How are you doing? We don't meet each other so often, do we?

ทั้งๆที่ฟ้าเดียวกันนั้นใกล้ แต่เพราะภาระของเราต่างกัน
Although we live in the same sky. Maybe it's because our jobs are different.

แม้จะไม่ได้พบเจอเธอ ก็รู้เสมอว่าเธออยู่ตรงไหน
Though I can't see you, but I know where you are.

และฉันก็รู้ว่างานเธอหนักเพียงใด เธอต้องดูแลใครๆมากมาย
And I also know that your job is heavy. You need to take care lots of people.

อยากบอกเธอว่าคิดถึง มีฉันซึ่งยังเป็นห่วงเสมอ
I want to say I miss you. You still got me who cares so much about you as always.

แม้ฉันไม่รู้เมื่อไหร่จะพบเธอ แต่ฝันถึงเธอทุกคืน
Although I don't know when we can meet each other, but I dream of you every night.

รู้ไว้พระจันทร์ดวงนี้รอพบเธอ และคิดถึงเธอเหลือเกิน
Remember that this Moon is waiting to see you and miss you so much.

Do you remember Christmas or New Year Eve in 2009? You wrote our names together on a piece of paper and then put it in a bottle or something and floated it into the river as a part of an occasional activity. That was really awesome for someone to do this for me. Merry christmas to you, my love. I'm off on chirstmas and i'm going to the temple to pray. Of course you will be included in my prayers as always. Merry X'mas 2013!

12 degrees

Baby, look how freezing it is! This is at 8.25 am in the morning!!! My feet and hands are numb now.

Jialin, is it you? Please tell me, just one word, yes or no...pls

I still keep everything from you. The very first gifts, baby Chompy that you made for me even though it consumed so much time from you, little Eeyore doll with the tag From you To me, they're still with me. I still have the tag attached to little Eeyore. The big Eeyore is on my bed. I hug him to sleep every night. That includes the dog-keyboard doll too.I hug them to sleep. The Micky and Minnie jigsaw is still on my bedroom wall. I look at it every night. The green notebook is on my desk. I write lots of things in there. The towel is in my drawer. I try not to use it because I don't wanna make it old. The DIY box in on my wardrobe. I keep plastic bags that were sent along with your gifts in there. The dried food, I didn't eat it up. There were a few things left which I spared them because I wanna keep them as a reminder from you. The pink notebook that you wrote and tried to fill it up with your beautiful hand-writing for me because I told you that I fell in love with your hand-writing is on a small table next to my bed. I open and read it before I fall asleep. The small boxes with purple feathers in them are kept in my desk drawer. The Blue Challenge that you bought for me in on my dressing table. I used it till it nearly gone and I spared the last few drops in the bottle because I don't wanna lose its last smell as it's no longer produced. It reminds me of our moments. I even keep the box packaging and also tissue paper inside that you used it to prevent bumping. The SG dollars that you sent me, I never use it. I keep it safe and locked up. A pair of purple socks is in the wardrobe. I don't use it as the size is too small for my feet but I never regret having it. I keep all your letters and also paper wraps. I will never throw them away as all these things are important to me.

Baby...I..

Prayers

You know that I'm not a religious person who usually goes to temple and prays that often but whenever I do so, I never ever forget to mention you in my prayers, praying you'll be happy, healthy, and successful in everything you do.

It's Winter here and the temperature has just dropped so sharply and fast but the comment you gave has given me the long lost familiar warmth. Thank you so much for still coming here. It means the world to me.

It's still attached, I believe so

I miss having someone waiting to read my blog like in the past :( baby...

Baby, finally he has fallen into my trap. Now I'm thinking of thousands of practical ways to pay him back all the pains he gave me. Of course he must suffer more than I did I can guarantee that. I come up with several plans but you know what? Just one simple good plan will do.

No pain, no gain

Lesson learnt! Sometimes you need a punch in the face to know where you stand and who you are to them. I regret going to the wedding yesterday as they treated me like shit but it enlightened me one important thing; they don't really need to be in my life anymore and I don't really need to impress them and try to fit in any longer. This is relieving.

Within You'll Remain

It's scary when you've been engaged in doing something for long time, even though it's not the thing you love, until it's become the only thing you know and can do. Am I too late to change the course of my life? A part of me says so.

Got 2 days off every week but still have to work! Useless!

:/

When it comes to work and assignments, I tend to be someone they call "a perfectionist". And I sort of dislike people who are full of mistakes. I can't help it. It's just my nature. I don't wanna judge people but they keep showing their flaws. That gives me hard feelings at work. damn!

Time and money

What's the point of earning lots of money but having no time to spend? On the other hand, what could we do if we have plenty of free time but not a penny to spend? It's hard getting on either of this. :/

Oh goshhh I miss communicating in English, both verbal and written :(

Baby, I use the same number, the very first one that I gave you, if you would call me

New chapter

Baby, I'm taking a very big step of my life. I've decided to ditch the old road that I had been wandering for a new hoped to be better one. I am taking all risks now. 

When things ain't right, I miss you and I need you the most by my side.

You'll always be the only person I call 'baby' in this life. You are my baby forever.

After you left, I've been dealing with things in my life all alone by myself. I've been through all good and bad moments. I miss your presence here. I need you back in my life :(

She's got everything I would want from a woman as a life partner. 

Idol

Today I heard someone say the word 'idol' and, suddenly, tears filled my eyes. I guess only you would understand what I mean here. :(

Everytime I watch a movie in cinema, it reminds me of you, back in 2009 when you watched 2012 in cinema and you said while you were watchign it, you thought of me, hoping to end your life beside me if this apocalypse striked us. I cry everytime I think of that moment.

To jialin

My life has run in circle. Now it came to the point where it used to be. Back in 2009, baby, only you would know it...

Baby, do you ever hate what you are doing now? Well, I hate what I do now. Why is life this difficult? :/

June 29th 1987

Do you still remember how surprised we were when we first knew that we were born in the same month? You said you were cancerian and I said 'Give me a minute, I need to look it up!' hahaha Then you told me you were born on June 29th and then I said mine is June 6th :)

Happy birthday, my baby. I have no idea how to send you my wish if it's not here. I know you will absolutely live a great life as you are always a great person. So, in the name of love, I won't ask for any other things than for you to live the life you seek, to do what you want to do, to go where your heart yearns for, to be with people you love, and to be happy in every aspect of life. Last but not least, I will always love you.

Expectation

Expectation, what good does it do for us? It gives hope and makes things look promising but it could give us the greatest pain if things don't go the way we expect.

Miss

I miss all those times when you called me during lunchbreak, when I called you to walk me to my car, when you called me to walk you to the train stations, I miss everything between us....I miss us.

On a trip...last sunday

Last couple nights, I had a dream about you. In the dream, you called me on the phone. I was so surprised and barely believed that it was you whom I was actually talking to. I was so happy, you would know it. It was so great that I had this dream but it was really sad that I could talk to you only in a dream.

Robert

Last couple weeks I rescused a baby bird from my dog's attacking (I named him Robert eventhough I didn't know if it's a he or she). I nursed him as best as I could as he was injured pretty bad. His lower beak was broken and torn. That gave him a hard time in eating. I fed him with worms and insects just like his parents would. On the next day, I noticed that his parents were looking for him and finally spotted him at where I placed him. I saw them trying to feed him with worms but Robert didn't open his mouth which I assumed that he couldn't. I didn't cage him so he was free to fly away with his parents anytime he wanted. Surprisingly, he didn't leave. Maybe it's because he wasn't strong enough yet. I continued nursing him for a few days and then came that day when he finally followed his parents and flew away. I am happy that he got to be with his parents in the end but I just can't help missing him badly. Even though it's just a few days that I was with Robert, I feel that he was a part of my life already. Hope you'll grow up and live a freedom life with happiness. 

Thank you

Thank you for the anonymous encouraging comment! I didn't expect anyone to be a fan at first but, wowww, it does feel great indeed to know that someone actually reads what I wrote and likes it. :) This little thing inspires me and gives me an urge to continue the blog. ^_^

BD

Here came my 30th birthday. I still remembered my birthday in 2010. You called me when the clock hit right at 12.00 am of June 6th and sang a BD song for me. That was the cutest move that I hadn't received from anyone before. This year, as I turned 30, I got to think about what had happened between us. We had passed so many things together, hadn't we? There were several times that we had fights, we teard, we misunderstood each other. But there were also a lot of times that we laughed, we smiled, we were so much in love with each other. Things were common in their ways when two people take a chance to get to know each other and be together as a couple, I guess. Honestly, I never regret anything between us, not even all those bad moments. Everything that you gave me, I still keep it safe with me, especially memories. They're all precious things to me. Now, it's been nearly 9 months since we last contacted each other. I want to talk to you, more than anything of course. But I don't know how to contact you. I miss you. I miss talking to you, telling you things happening in my life.  And I miss us. I'm not sure if you will ever get to this blog or not. I was hoping that the SG flag shown in my visitor feed was you. If that was you, it would be a great BD gift to me this year.