June 29th 1987

Do you still remember how surprised we were when we first knew that we were born in the same month? You said you were cancerian and I said 'Give me a minute, I need to look it up!' hahaha Then you told me you were born on June 29th and then I said mine is June 6th :)

Happy birthday, my baby. I have no idea how to send you my wish if it's not here. I know you will absolutely live a great life as you are always a great person. So, in the name of love, I won't ask for any other things than for you to live the life you seek, to do what you want to do, to go where your heart yearns for, to be with people you love, and to be happy in every aspect of life. Last but not least, I will always love you.

Expectation

Expectation, what good does it do for us? It gives hope and makes things look promising but it could give us the greatest pain if things don't go the way we expect.

Miss

I miss all those times when you called me during lunchbreak, when I called you to walk me to my car, when you called me to walk you to the train stations, I miss everything between us....I miss us.

On a trip...last sunday

Last couple nights, I had a dream about you. In the dream, you called me on the phone. I was so surprised and barely believed that it was you whom I was actually talking to. I was so happy, you would know it. It was so great that I had this dream but it was really sad that I could talk to you only in a dream.

Robert

Last couple weeks I rescused a baby bird from my dog's attacking (I named him Robert eventhough I didn't know if it's a he or she). I nursed him as best as I could as he was injured pretty bad. His lower beak was broken and torn. That gave him a hard time in eating. I fed him with worms and insects just like his parents would. On the next day, I noticed that his parents were looking for him and finally spotted him at where I placed him. I saw them trying to feed him with worms but Robert didn't open his mouth which I assumed that he couldn't. I didn't cage him so he was free to fly away with his parents anytime he wanted. Surprisingly, he didn't leave. Maybe it's because he wasn't strong enough yet. I continued nursing him for a few days and then came that day when he finally followed his parents and flew away. I am happy that he got to be with his parents in the end but I just can't help missing him badly. Even though it's just a few days that I was with Robert, I feel that he was a part of my life already. Hope you'll grow up and live a freedom life with happiness. 

Thank you

Thank you for the anonymous encouraging comment! I didn't expect anyone to be a fan at first but, wowww, it does feel great indeed to know that someone actually reads what I wrote and likes it. :) This little thing inspires me and gives me an urge to continue the blog. ^_^

BD

Here came my 30th birthday. I still remembered my birthday in 2010. You called me when the clock hit right at 12.00 am of June 6th and sang a BD song for me. That was the cutest move that I hadn't received from anyone before. This year, as I turned 30, I got to think about what had happened between us. We had passed so many things together, hadn't we? There were several times that we had fights, we teard, we misunderstood each other. But there were also a lot of times that we laughed, we smiled, we were so much in love with each other. Things were common in their ways when two people take a chance to get to know each other and be together as a couple, I guess. Honestly, I never regret anything between us, not even all those bad moments. Everything that you gave me, I still keep it safe with me, especially memories. They're all precious things to me. Now, it's been nearly 9 months since we last contacted each other. I want to talk to you, more than anything of course. But I don't know how to contact you. I miss you. I miss talking to you, telling you things happening in my life.  And I miss us. I'm not sure if you will ever get to this blog or not. I was hoping that the SG flag shown in my visitor feed was you. If that was you, it would be a great BD gift to me this year.