You once asked me why I had headache so often. I didnt think about it much or look for the answer back then. But now I start to think about it as I'm having it for 2 days straight. It's not a severe pain but I still had to take a pill. It didnt go away at first but now it's much better. I mention it now because it usually last just 1 day and it would go away. But this time it's continuous.

Tamis ng Unang Halik - Philippines beautiful song

 

 One moment that seemed like time just stood still
My very first kiss with the one that I love
In that moment when I first felt
a second that seemed to last forever
That's how it felt like, the first time we kissed

How long ago was it?
It's been a long time
But the sweet taste of your lips still lingers in my mouth
And every time I close my eyes
Why does it feel like I'm reliving it?
Everything else will fade away
but not the memory of our very first kiss

Your heart will long for somebody else
You'll fall in and out of love in your lifetime
And you might forget everything else
But you never will, you'll never forget our very first kiss
The very first beat of my heart that's longing
In that moment when I tasted your kiss
a moment that seemed like time just stood still
I may try forgetting you but it's hard to do
Because my feelings won't

I scream inside, I scream so loud, I couldn't speak
It was so sweet, the very first time we kissed

I dont understand why she keeps raising her voice and shouting at me when talking. Doesnt she know that no one loves this? She says it's because we are close enough. That's why she feels comfortable enough to express herself with me. But i personally think that being close doesnt mean that we can shout at each other but it means we are close enough to know what each other doesnt like, for example, I dont like being shouted or yelled at. Does she know that after each shouting, it makes me wanna talk to her less and less? These days I dont talk to her as much as i did in the past for fear that she would raise her voice on me and make a scene.

Shits happen everywhere

Let me complain about work issues for a bit here. I understand that being a team head has to be responsible for the whole team. But what I don't understand is why some people are really uncapable of what they should be of. Someone keeps asking me about some assignments which he should know about them very well because he's been asking me the same topics for several times already. Sometimes he already knows how he should do but he still asks me. And that kinda annoys me coz he's kinda wasting my time. Tasks and assignments are already rushing and dealing with these people drives me crazy at times. Some people are regulary late at work. I already told them to get to work on time and I'm not the kind of person who likes to repeat myself twice or more than that. We are all grown ups. Why can't they be mature up to their age? It isn't hard to be self-responsible, self organized, and self-disciplined. I hate these kinds of people especially when they are my colleagues. I know that we all make mistakes but sometimes some people just make stupid mistakes repeatedly. Do they know that this kinda act is making themselves untrustworthy? Jeez they're truely useless.

Some time, someday in the future

Baby, if you have a chance, please try this film, The Adjustment Bureau. I think it explains everything that happened to us from the past till now pretty well. Maybe they've written plans to separate and set us apart but if you get to watch this film, you'll know that real soul-mates will eventually find their way back to be together. In the movie, each character accepted their false-destined paths at first and tried to live their lives separately according to plans from the above. It continued like this for a few years and then fate brought them back to meet each other to realize that even though they separated, dated someone else, but they couldn't settle down with anyone else because they still love and think of each other so much. They don't understand it either why they couldn't let go of each other no matter how hard they tried. They're soulmates and perhaps that's why. And when they get back together, they ate so much more in love and adore each other a lot. I think maybe that's what happened to us. Maybe that's why it never worked out with anyone else for you, and of course, it wouldn't work out with anyone else for me either. Maybe we're waiting to fall back together someday some time in the future. Maybe we're really meant for each other, perhaps not now but in the near future. Maybe they set us apart in order to teach us to appreciate each other more than we used to when we fall back together again. That's how I believe and it keeps growing stronger and stronger.