Last blogging

It's been a while since I last wrote something here. I didn't come here as often as I used to anymore. I didn't know what to say as I couldn't find words to describe and express what I though and felt. My spirit got high some days but sometimes I got incredibly weak. Life is hard and things are never easy. I don't talk it out with anyone as they probably wouldn't understand me plus they wouldn't care. Work turns to be an unhealthy routine for me. Working under time pressure is sort of killing. Relationship stuff is not going any further as I myself don't make it progressive. Our flame was put out long time ago. The one I really wanna be with is far away, across oceans and borders. As you're reading this, you know who is the one I refer to. Our past was really special, a once in a life time kind of things. I'm happy just to recall all those memories and it hurts so badly when I think about what we could have been today. Still, you're my favorite pain.