You will always hurt me no matter what

Lovely rascal

Rascal bit my left index finger yesterday. I thought it would be nothing so I didn't seek any medical attention, just cleaned the wound myself. Today, I found that the wound looked already healed but the finger was pretty swollen, hurt, and numb. So I decided to see a doctor. Got a vaccine treat for Tetanus and will have to go for a few shots in following months. Anyway, the dog bite part is over but what looks like a new issue to me is my blood pressure. Normally I don't get to check it at all coz I'm pretty healthy. But since I went to the hospital today, they checked it as a routine. It was 140/98. That's quite high, isn't it?

Memories

In our old days,
You were the reason I looked forward to the next day

And now,

You are the reason why I keep looking back to the past

We're absolutely apart. I guess we'll never see each other again, ever. Destiny drove us away and we let it. We surrendered and gave up eventually. We first knew each other in 2009. Think about how cool it would be if we were still together right now! We could be saying that we'd made it nearly 10 years now. Sometimes I wonder if you would think of me. But then gain, I barely know you.

:/

How many do I have left?

 

In times of despair like this, where are you?

Ouch!

That's another thing I should fucking keep in mind

Hallelujah

You once told me I broke your heart

Well, didn't you break mine?

Remember that night when I cried to you on the phone?

It hurt a lot and it still does

Cold hard truth

Sometimes I really hate reading all these reminder stuffs

Coz they hit right at my heart, knowing and realizing they're true

What a cold hard truth they are :(

There were times when you could never imagine your life without me. 

Now, you barely breathe my name.

You replaced it with someone else's.

Hopefully that one is you

Fav songs #1

2017

It's kinda ironic, us. We were so close to each other, deep in soul level, back when we were still together without these state of the art communication technologies like nowadays. We got no apps that could connect each other 24 hrs a day, no free call service through those apps, no smartphones, no anything at all, just simple web-based emails, PC-based Skype, and early generation mobile phones which we had to actually dial abroad. That meant we actually made time to talk and contact each other, to sit in front of the computer each night and wait for the other to get online, to log in to check emails and made our effort in replying, to actually pay for phone bills in order to get to listen to each other's voice and all. That was almost 9 years ago, back in 2009.

But look at where we are now. It's 2017 here, and with all modern and available tonnes of communication technologies, we don't talk anymore..at all. Well, I'd better say you don't contact or keep in touch with me at all even when I try to reach out for you for so many times. Even with all these available messenger apps, you still never make any efforts in contacting me. It would definitely take less time to do so comparing to what we used to do to contact each other in the past. Your smart phone is already connecting to the internet all the time and I'm pretty sure it must be installed with at least 1 messaging app. Yet, I still haven't heard anything from you. How much does it take to open the app, simply type 'hi', and send? It's less than 1 minute. All I wanted is just a little update from you but I never got one.

It's been a year since I last blogged which was supposed to be my last blogging here. I thought one year would have changed how I felt towards you but it didn't change even a bit. You still occupy my mind most of the time. Been thinking about those time when we talked on the phone about all big and tiny topics and we never got enough time when we were on it. We kept topping up our mobile balance coz we spent it all up so fast. What a priceless experience it is! Anyway, you must be living your life the way you always want right now. I don't want to get on your way and drag you down with me. It hurts a lot, not to be able to be with you. I guess only you can hurt me this much. Only you that I want to be with for the rest of my life..